So, after some thought, I've decided that I'd like to do some...

HOLIDAY CARDS

This was largely influenced by going into my school bookstore and seeing the cute cards they have there. Ahem.

Anyway! If you would like a card from me, please leave your address in a comment here! (Comments are screened.) I will, of course, not share it with anyone else, and no one needs to feel obligated to send me a card in return or anything like that. If you are on my flist, you can have one! I'll also try to make sure to leave my address for anyone else who happens to be doing this.

I'll do my best to get them out before Christmas, though I'm going to buy a non-denominational set of cards to be safe. Since I know not everyone celebrates, blah blah blah. UMM, YES. Honestly, the amount that I tl;dr in them depends on how much free time I end up having, but I'm big on personalized messages, so it'll be more than just "Have a nice holiday." 8D

But yes! Feel free to comment. I'm looking forward to writing these up 'cause I'm a dork. ♥

Update about the whole internet situation. I ended up coming home this weekend since I needed to find my start-up disc (which I did, to my immense relief) and then back up all of my stuff with the help of evildrew's external hard drive. (Thanks again for that, Andrew!)

So tonight I'll go back on the train and then I'll take my computer in tomorrow and it'll hopefully be all reformatted by Tuesday. Then I should be around a lot more. I'm glad this seems to be working out, since I was beyond frustrated about it for a while.

Anyway, here's a meme that I was tagged for by lady_angelina:

FIRST: If you've been tagged, you must write your answers in your own LJ and replace any question that you dislike with a new, original question.
SECOND: Tag eight sexy people. Don't refuse to do that like a pansy.

( snip snip. )

I apologize if I tag someone who's already been tagged: bondofflame, continuum, endless_abyss, evildrew, famira, nest, otakara, and wyna_hiros, you're up!

Last night I had a dream where I hugged Luxord. Except it was also kind of Mary? But definitely Luxord. He was wearing boxers under his Org. coat.

I think this is my brain telling me that it wants to just play 358/2 Days and RP. I couldn't agree with it more.

I'm somewhere in the 150 Day region, by the way. For anyone who might have some reason to want to know my progress. Wink wink, nudge nudge.

Okay, a real update! I'm making one.

School has been going fine, which is partly because I'm only taking 12 units, so my workload is generally manageable. Sometimes the reading gets heavy, but there are also some times when it's pretty light, so it's been good so far. I'm sure I'll be singing a different tune when my papers are due, but that's kind of the norm, so.

I've been trying to get involved in other stuff that will help boost my resumé (that doesn't... actually exist yet, OOPS). First off is that study abroad internship I mentioned. In fact, I have to leave to go do my "office hour" in 25 minutes or so. That part is just chilling in the office one hour a week and answering questions for anyone who walks in. I also have to do other stuff, such as giving presentations, participating in a photo contest, etc. It's pretty chill, though, so that's nice.

Secondly, I turned in an application to my college newspaper to work as a copy editor next quarter. I'm really hoping I get that since the hours aren't too bad and it actually pays. *__* In fact, I should email them and make sure my app made it into the right hands.

Lastly, I'm an editor for a literary magazine that my major is putting out. At this point all it involves is reading over the submissions every week (poems, stories, etc.) and grading them. It's actually kind of fun, though that might be because I'm used to doing this sort of thing due to reading damned apps, ffff.

Speaking of which, I've read almost all of those, so now I'm going to attempt to power-play through Days so I can read those four apps. I'm not sure how well this plan will work, but it's worth a shot, right?

Oh, right, and I had my birthday! On the actual day I had a lot of class, but still made it out for some Italian food and was surprised when some of my friends who I went to Japan with were there as well. It was really sweet of them to come. Then I returned to the apartment and ate delicious German chocolate cake. The following Sunday my parents, my brother, and my brother's boyfriend came up and we went out to lunch with some of my friends, so that was nice. Oh, and Erin was up here all last weekend and we had a great time. We went to a lemon festival, saw Zombieland (which we both loved), played Arkham Asylum, and watched Heroes together on Monday night before she left.

My haul:
- $200, half from my mom and half from my dad
- Hat, scarf, and Halloween candy from my mom
- Two years of paid LJ time and 1 year of extra userpics from my brother
- Friendship bracelet from one of my friends who I went to Japan with
- Half of the price for the Heroes doujinshi I bought was paid for by Erin, plus she came up to see me

I think that's it. I'm probably going to use some of the money I got to pay for y-con, since yes, I'm finally going! Only for a day (Saturday, AKA Halloween), but I'll also be chilling in San Francisco for the weekend, which I'm really looking forward to. But yeah. ANYONE GOING TO Y-CON? Zalia, I know you are, at least! We should meet up. Erin's going too. ♥

As was mentioned last entry, I did go to the beach! It was great and made me wonder why I don't do it more often. I think we might go again next Sunday, and I'm going to try and go while I'm in Santa Barbara as well. But yes, I went with my mom and my brother. My brother and I swam out pretty far and just treaded water and floated and gawked at the fire cloud in the distance. (California, why must you always burn? D:) I also laid around on the sand and read a bit and slept. All in all, very relaxing! I love the ocean.

I was reading Catch-22. I actually read it once when in middle school, but I barely remember it. I doubt I understood much of it at the time, but I do recall liking it despite that. And it seems good so far! I want to keep on chipping away at it while I can (by which I mean while I'm not in school and don't have 53729473 other books to read), but I suspect that other things will distract me.

Such as Dissidia, which I bought today using my Best Buy gift cards! I haven't played much yet at all (seriously, I'm not even done with the Prologue), but it seems nifty thus far. Actually, the thing that got me the most excited was having the other characters from the different games giving the tutorials. I grinned like nothing else when Steiner and Vivi started explaining stuff to me. Though... all I have to say? Zell better show up at some point or there will be hell to pay. Oh, and some FFVI characters too. I'm already noticing the bias for the higher-numbered games and I do not approve. (Well, I at least want some FFIV and FFVI in there, dammit! The others aren't quite as important since... let's face it, most of the characters in I-III and V are pretty flat. EXCEPT FOR FARIS.)

Anyway, I know a few other people on my flist have the game already, so if you want to do battle sometime... well, we should! After I've actually gotten through more of the game and gotten a feel for which character I like the most and stuff, that is.

In other news, I watched Tropic Thunder yesterday! It was pretty amusing, and it reminded me of how I pretty much love Robert Downey Jr. in every role he does. It also reminded me that I need to see Kiss Kiss Bang Bang already. Oh, and that scene between him and Tobey Maguire never gets old.

What else? Oh, lacidiana starts school tomorrow, which probably means I'll be around more often... until my own school starts up, at least. Which is... September 24th, I believe?

I think that's about all for now. Oh, and I love this icon. So. Much.

Home safely! I was hanging out on barely any sleep for a while since my friends surprised me at my house, but now I'm kind of feeling it catch up to me. Auuuuuuugh.

Flight went well, though, and I'm fine. I broke out the PSP and ended up getting Crisis Core for it since it was $20 at Best Buy. Also downloaded the Dissidia demo and it's way more fun than expected!

AHHHHHHHHH saying goodbye is hard. :( Especially when people start crying and then I don't know what to dooooo except hug them and say nakanai de!! I don't cry easily, so I feel bad -- but just because I'm not crying doesn't mean I'm not sad.

Being back in America is going to be weird, but I'm excited to see everyone and to give them the souvenirs I got them and all that. It's just... I don't know, that sense that a chapter of my life is ending and things will never quite be like this again. I guess it was the same with high school, but this is somehow different.

BUT WOW, I just make myself sadder if I put it into words like that.

I'll see a lot of the friends who I made here back in California, so it's okay, but... gaaah.

Anyway, yeah, going on a jetplane tomorrow. It sucks, though, since we have to be out of the apartments by 11, but my flight doesn't leave until 5:30PM, meaning I'll be stuck at the airport for a while before I even get off the ground. I'll have one friend with me (we happen to be on the same flight), but he was totally despondent tonight so I don't know what that'll be like. D:

But I'll post again when I'm on the other side of the Pacific! ♥

VICTORY!!!

Yes, that is me and my friends at the top of Mt. Fuji. \o/ I am the one in the red sweater, in case you didn't know. Pardon me looking like crap -- I had just climbed a mountain, after all. Overall, it was very difficult and painful, but I'm glad that I did it! I mean, I just gained like... a bazillion badass points, right? And that's probably one of the crazier things I've ever done. It was quite the experience, so I'll give a recap (with a few more pictures) under the cut.

( Mt. Fuji Adventure )

Tomorrow will be spent packing, maybe souvenir shopping, and then going to my class party.

Oh, and I forgot to mention that I successfully obtained a PSP! It is red and amazing and I can't want to get games for it.

Speaking of which, I played a ton of Pokemon on the trains during the trip. Finally got back to my Pearl game, and it was a lot of fun. The sad thing is that I spent all that time leveling up. I finally decided that I want one Pokemon of each element/type to be up to level, although some Pokemon cover two categories (my Monferno is Fighting and Fire time, for instance). Anyway, going to be playing the shit out of that on the flight home.

Okay, I have to share this because it is probably the cutest thing I have ever seen, no joke. You don't really need any prior knowledge whatsoever other than the fact that Kirk and Spock had been separated for a while before this.



THEY ARE SO AMAZING, THESE TWO. I am a convert, I think.

Additionally, this here picture makes my life. I'd like to just go ahead and admit right now that I find forty-odd-years-ago Shatner hot. KIND OF ASHAMED, but it can't be helped. It, uhh, doesn't help that pinstrip suits are kind of a kink of mine.

As should be obvious at this point, I am getting dragged into the land of Star Trek: The Original Series. THIS IS ALL nest's FAULT. I have seen three full episodes (with plans to see all of it eventually), watched way too many clips on YouTube, and scoured devart for both TOS and 09 fanart. How did my life end up like this.

In other news, I bought this month's ガンガン (the monthly publication that Fullmetal Alchemist chapters come out in) because the free item that came with it was a Fullmetal Alchemist pencil case. AWWWW YEAH. It is red and I was pleasantly surprised to see that it had Ling on it. No Hughes, Kimbley, Greed, or Havoc, though. But man, I am way too excited for something like this. Honestly, this stuff is made for Japanese middle school boys to buy and then show off to all their friends so that they all go buy it too -- and here I am, a 20-year-old college student getting all psyched about a pencil case.

Life is strange.

Lastly, BRB GOING TO TOKYO. The whole gang (aka evildrew, endless_abyss, lacidiana, and pandaheero) is coming to visit me and to sightsee, so I'm going with nest to meet up with them there. VERY MUCH EXCITED FOR THIS, it has been too long without my nakama. :(

All right! So I went ahead and got a dreamwidth account (thanks to the lovely mirror) since it seemed neat that you could crosspost and I was curious. Uhh, it also had a lot to do with the fact that court wasn't taken, and I've always wanted a simple name like that. I guess I could have gotten something that sounded cool, but... I wanted my name. Or the shortened version, at least. SO YES, please go ahead and add me and I'll try not to fail at figuring out how this site works. I'm testing the crossposting right now.

Also, I know I have a ton of memes that I need to fill out, and I'll try to get to that tomorrow. I'm pretty tired now after chilling with Kaze for the past two days, which was a blast and I bought way too much stuff, but... worth it. Yes. I should really post about it on my Japan journal, mrrr. I also played a little bit of Crisis Core and pawed at Zack and his improved hairdo.

I hope everyone is doing well!

So, me and my roommates almost got caught up in a housing scam!

Actually, I guess we did get caught up in one, but we figured it out before any real damage was done. See, we need to find someone to take my spot in the apartment, since I'll be in Japan during spring quarter. We put up on ad on CraigsList, and... well, this is basically what happened.

Mado, my friend/flatmate (using the term flatmate because "apartmentmate" is way too long), was the person who was doing the email correspondence with the supposed 26-year-old girl from Germany. It was difficult to get the proper details from "her" the whole time since of the English as a second language thing, which made the emails hard to read. Eventually, though, the money orders came in the mail. There were two, each for $1500, plus a check that was over $3000.

Now, as if that wasn't odd enough, the money orders were international Walmart ones (wtf?), but one had been issued in South Dakota, while the other had been issued in Pennsylvania. And the package had been sent out the day before or something along those lines -- in other words, no way had it come from Germany. Plus, "she" wanted us to send the money through a bank to some dude in Michigan. (We suspect the Michigan guy was the one behind the whole thing. Blegh.)

At this point Mado realized that it didn't smell right, and when she explained it to me and my roommate, we were, to quote Dean Winchester, in violent agreement. Mado ended up calling the Los Angeles FBI office, and they confirmed that it was a scam.

So, my brush with the crime! Uhh, after that fiasco (Mado's going to send the money orders to the FBI for evidence), we were hoping to have a local student come and check out the apartment to see if she wanted to live here, but she ended up blowing us off. Kinda peeved about that, but the upside is that it motivated me to clean, which kind of needed to be done. The problem is that... we still need someone to take my spot, and time is quickly running out. But we put up another ad on CraigsList, and now we'll know which responses to ignore, ffff. Crossing my fingers here.

Oh, the best part of this whole thing was when me and Emily heard Mado from the other room on the phone saying, "Uhh, I think I need to report money fraud?"

In other news, I only have the last case of Phoenix Wright 3 to go! Uhh, I know it is epically long, but I can get through in four days, right? Right?!

I figured I should make one last post before the New Year!

So yeah, I went on two trips this break, which is surprising since I don't usually travel all that much. Tahoe was a lot of fun, even though we only got to ski once. And Big Bear was great too, except for the drive up - it literally took us six hours to get there, when it normally takes two and a half. Yeah, it was hellish (and there was some concern that we were going to run out of gas), but all of us (me, my mom, my brother, and Erin) managed to keep our cool. We didn't get irritated with each other, at least.

Once we were there it was great. Even though it was crowded as hell, skiing there was a ton of fun, especially since it thinned out later on in the afternoon. And we all got along and had good food and played Scrabble and then went tabogonning before driving back. Fate took pity on us and made sure there was no traffic on the drive home.

Unfortunately, all the traveling and being in cold weather and spending a weekend with my sick brother means that I have a mild cold now. Just kind of achey and congested with a sore throat. I'm hoping it goes away as quickly as it came.

New Year's Eve is going to be spent with my pals, as usual. We're also doing our gift exchange then, and I'll make my official Christmas haul post after that...

Though I will say that one of the things I was got was Sonic Unleashed. Even though it didn't get the best reviews, I've been enjoying it a lot so far, and I can already tell I'm starting to get addicted. Games give me these things to collect and I latch onto that for dear life. Don't ask me why I get satisfaction out of stuff like that because I really don't know. Anyway, it's not like it's the best game ever, but as a Sonic fan it's been fun.

Also, one of the Damned apps that we got from someone who had to send it in early is for Sonic, and reading it made me remember how much I need to get Sonic Adventure 2 for Gamecube. Damn my Dreamcast for no longer working... My data for the Dreamcast version of SA2 was so awesome. I worked hard for those A scores! (Or S scores... or whatever it was.)

I'm rambling now. I really should go rest so that I'm feeling better for tomorrow, so... I'll see you in 2009, flist!

MY FINALS ARE DONE. Insert sparkly text here. I'm always too lazy to try and figure out how to do it for real.

I had to get up at 7:00 this morning to go take my last one, and it was so freezing biking onto campus at that hour. Auuugh, I thought my lips were going to freeze. At least it gave me an excuse to wear gloves and a scarf, though.

My friend Mado is driving up as we speak (or she better be) to come see the apartment (she's living here next quarter), see me and my roommate, and then take me home with her later today. And my other friend who used to go here but then transferred to another school might be driving down as well, so I hope that happens. I want to show her Dr. Horrible's Sing-Along Blog because I showed her Firefly freshman year and so I'm pretty sure she'd appreciate it, hee. (She was the person who started me on Heroes, come to think of it. I mean, I had considered watching the show before, but when she visited last year she brought the first disc of the DVD set with her and it was all over after that.)

I need to go return my books, but it's very difficult to motivate myself to get on my bike again. Seeing how I don't have much else to do, though... I should probably get it over with before Mado gets here.

But yeah, I'll be back home tonight, and then tomorrow I have to get ready to leave on Saturday for Tahoe. YIKES. It's going to be fun, though. There better be internet there.

ALSO, anyone who is still watching Heroes but is losing faith in it (or already has, but is watching nonetheless): This article might make you feel a little better. (The spoilers are whited-out.) It certainly cheered me up. Oh, and this picture is great.

The up-arrow on my keyboard is dying. :(

I am home! The carpets are redone (except for the bedrooms) and our fireplace has finally been fixed, so there's a log burning in there right now. Also, looks like I might get to go skiing up in Lake Tahoe with Erin and her family during the first week of winter break, and then I might go with my mom and some friends to Big Bear for skiing over New Years. THIS EXCITES ME. I FRICKIN' LOVE SKIING.

The drive back here was so long. It took three hours, whereas usually it only takes about 1.5 to 2 hours. Auuugh. Though I think I'll try and get some work done now since my mom had to go into work for a bit and my brother's also about to leave for work, so there isn't much else to do.

Last weekend was really busy. Other than having a bunch of school work, I also helped my roommate sift through the debris of her house that burned: See here. That was tiring, but afterward we went to a game night with some old friends from freshman year. I got to play Guitar Hero: World Tour. ♥ It was way too fun singing Santeria. And playing the drums.

Thanksgiving is just going to be spent with my parents and my brother, which is how it normally is. I'm not huge on Thanksgiving food, but I'm still looking forward to it. Turkey, mashed potatoes, and pumpkin pie are goooood.

Some of you may have heard of the fire that's been working its way through Santa Barbara. I'm not anywhere near it, really, so no worries there, but my roommate (who is a Santa Barbara resident) lost her house to it.

I can't even imagine what that's like. I mean, even though fires are pretty common through most of California, living in an urban area means that it's never been much of a concern for me. I mean, I've had those thoughts about what I would grab if my house caught fire (I think everyone has), but I've never had to deal with the actual reality of it. She and her parents were able to salvage some stuff before they had to evacuate, at least. It also helps that a lot of Emily's stuff is here in the apartment, but man, what a huge blow. I'd been to her house before and it was really nice and had a great view, and... I don't know, it's about that loss of security that comes with not having somewhere to go home to.

Their insurance covers everything, which is good, but it doesn't make up for the irreplaceable stuff that was lost. Her parents are staying at a hotel for now and are going to start looking for a place to rent tomorrow. Their two cats are here in the apartment for now since they had nowhere else to take them. Technically it's illegal under our lease, but I don't care since we have a good reason for keeping them here. It's not like the rental company is going to find out, anyway. It'll actually be kind of nice, since I've never gotten to live with furry animals before, and these cats are pretty mellow. Well, one of them is a neurotic mess and is always hiding (he's also the biggest cat I have ever seen even though his name is Little Man), but the other one is sweet and pretty friendly.

Anyway, I don't even know how Emily is coping, but she's been surprisingly calm - or she's come off that way, at least. She told me she's still in shock, and I haven't seen her all that much because she's been in and out dealing with everything. I wish there was more I could do to help, but I guess all I can do right now is offer moral support. I downloaded last night's Supernatural so she could see it since she wasn't able to watch last night, and she actually seemed really glad to hear that when I told her. Hopefully it'll take her mind off of everything for a little while. (Her second season Supernatural DVDs were actually one of the things that she grabbed from her house. I really got her into that show...)

But yeah, just... really feeling for her now. ;; She's going to come back and we're going to try and use that really ghetto recipe to make cake in a mug in the microwave and then watch Supernatural, and hopefully she'll feel a little better.

Oh man, I forgot how nice it is to have lots of icons. UNF.

So, lacidiana and evildrew came to see me this weekend! Well, they arrived Friday and left Saturday night, but we made the best of it. We went and saw a show put on by my school's improv group on Friday night, which was a lot of fun. Saturday we went downtown and had pastrami and walked around for a bit. And they got me back into Animal Crossing. That game is way more fun that it should be, really. I love writing letters and sending gifts and donating stuff to the museum and listening to K.K. and... yeah. Of course, now I'm worried that I'll forget about it and my townsfolk will all move away, but I'm going to try and keep up!

School has been all right. I have to do a recitation in Middle English on Wednesday, an oral exam in Japanese on Thursday, and there's a midterm for my Chicano Studies class next Monday, but I'm managing. I also signed up for some of my classes for next quarter, and hopefully that'll work out well. And I won't be wimping out and only taking three classes next time!

It was so damn foggy when I biked onto campus this morning, holy smokes.

Oh, and this coming weekend I'll be going home! I've decided that Halloween is way too crazy here and I don't want to deal with it, so I'm going to abandon ship for a while. I also think my parents really want to see me since they jumped at the idea of me visiting and offered whatever rides were necessary to make it possible, so yeah. That should be fun. I look forward to greeting my bed.

Anyway, now some thoughts on: ( Heroes, 'Eris Quod Sum.' )

Happy birthday, little_serenity!!

I hope that you've been feeling better, and that your new computer is all set up and that all of that is working out. And that you had an awesome day, of course. ♥

And you're cool 'cause your birthday is right after mine. \o/

EDIT: Oh, and elendraug, thank you for the extra userpics!! You are too kind and also totally awesome.

So, today was my birthday! Yaaaaay! It was a good day, thankfully! It started with my grandfather calling me sometime in the eight o' clock hour to wish me well, which was very sweet of him considering he was calling all the way from South Africa. Then I checked my email to see a slew of notifications that people had written on my Facebook wall, which was a great way to start the day. And, of course, all of the posts made by you awesome LJ folk were much appreciated as well. ♥!!

I got calls from my mom (she sang for me, d'awww), my dad, Andrew, Erin, Jenny, and a text from my cousin on top of that. I know some people really hate their birthdays for one reason or another, but for me it's just really nice to be reminded of all the people who have you in their thoughts, especially after the rough time I was having a week or so ago. (I'm doing a lot better now, for the record!)

But yeah, I went to class, and then ate, and then had to head over to the financial aid office for a bit. Then I came home and opened the snail mail cards that my dad and Erin sent me, and they made me cry. :X WHEN DID I BECOME SUCH A SAP, GOD.

I got my work done relatively fast and then my roommate took me downtown to this Italian restaurant. I had lasagna and then we had this amazing chocolate cake with butterscotch for dessert. ♥ ♥

Then there was House, which was awesome! I feel cool that such a good episode was on my birthday. ( Thoughts on that. )

As for gifts, Erin got me 12 months of LJ paid time, and anonymous got me six months of paid time for razing_phoenix. HO CRAP. I've never had a paid account for one of my RP journals, so I'm a little overwhelmed. Actually, Erin and Andrew were supposed to come up to see me this weekend, but it turns out that can't happen, so I think I'll just spend my time uploading icons like mad if I get bored. 8D I'LL MAKE THE BEST OF THINGS. Uhh, and my mom asked me what I wanted and I said a digital camera would be good, since I want one for when I'm in Japan... And I think my dad's just going to give me cash. So yeah, that's that! Overall, I'm very pleased with how today turned out, so whoo! I needed this, to be honest. ♥

Oh, and I believe tonight was also a full moon! More coolness on my birthday, amirite. But yes, thanks again to everyone who wished me well! You guys are the best.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY, lacidiana!!! ♥

Check right over here for gift, plz.

So, things have been really insane for me lately. I just haven't been doing very well emotionally, which is pretty surprising for me, since I tend to sail through life other than, y'know, the stress of school and stuff.

The combination of moving into a new place (even though I'm familiar with the school and the area, being in an apartment is different from the dorms), financial concerns, the anticipation of classes starting and all the work I have, the stress of all the paperwork I need to do for studying abord, just missing home in general, and then getting into a phase of "what the hell am I going to do when I'm out of school?" has had me pretty down. I'm not usually someone who feels like crying all of a sudden, but on Sunday night I was in tears while talking with Erin and my mom. I've been slowly getting better since then, but yeah, it's been rough. (Part of me thinks it's because I'm due for my period and I'm really hoping I'll be less emotional once I get it, but who knows.) Then my dad called me today (while I was in the university center since the internet is down at my apartment for some reason) to give me more reassurance and support and just... be there, and I had to try really hard not to start crying here, in a public place. Auuugh, I'm just not used to being like this. It's very unlike me.

But I'm working through it, I think. My mom was suggesting I get a job, but I just... don't know if I have the time for it. I feel bad since I know that tons of other people work while going to school and that makes me wonder why I can't do the same thing, but I just... I don't know. I also feel terrible because I've been pretty absent at damned due to all of this stuff, and I just want to feel at ease and content again, and it's been hard.

Part of my concern is that it seems like everyone's post-graduation plan is graduate school. And I don't know that I want to do that. Nor do I think I could afford it. Literature is my major (Japanese minor), and I worry that there won't be any options for me unless I go to graduate school. It doesn't help that when it comes down to it, I don't know what I want to do. I think I need to be more informed of what my options are, but my dad was so sweet, telling me that I could do whatever I wanted because I'm a dedicated, hard-working person, and BAAAW, I'm tearing up just thinking about it.

The good thing about a heavy workload is it means I have less time to get myself worked up, but the three-day weekend will hopefully give me some time to relax... Unless it backfires and causes me to think too hard and I end up a wreck again. But I'm trying to be optimistic!

Oh, and the other thing was that I've realized that I'm not very good at feeding myself, so I ended up getting a 5 meal plan at the dining hall to make sure I eat a proper lunch, at the very least. I need to figure out more quick, easy-to-make things that I can have for dinner, though. I dunno.

But yeah, hopefully the internet will get fixed soon so that I can actually be around and talk to people in what free time that I have. I miss you guys. ♥